Lesson Learnt.

I think that feeling is almost gone.

Just upgraded my Windows Vista to Windows 7 and I'm extremely satisfied and happy with it. Just getting used to it but it looks better and that makes my day better somehow.

It is really scary how in about 4 months, I'm gonna be a doctor. A real-life doctor. Not a student.

Heartbreak.

I have never experienced such pain in my life before. Never. Words can't ever describe this feeling inside of me. Is there something worse than guilt? Shame? Regret? Sadness? Despair? Dread? I am feeling all these inside of me right now, it really hurts.

I have never done anything for them to be in this state before. I'm so fucking broken that I actually caused this and that I can't do ANYTHING about it. How can I make it right again? It's impossible.

I am not very eloquent with words and so it's difficult for me to express this adequately. This insane creature inside of me, eating me up from inside. All I can do to feel better is to harden my heart and let it be. But I just can't.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Louboutins.

Just watched Jennifer Lopez perform Louboutins on Ellen DeGeneres. She's one brave woman. Did the jump again, even higher, and didn't fall. On national TV again.

Retail therapy today. Bought Christmas presents for myself and friend. Happy.

Element of Freedom.

Alicia Keys' album is simply too addictive. You have to listen to it at a go. The first few songs set you up for the rest of the album.

Early day today. I should be studying furiously. But I'm not.

Bad.

Insomnia, Part II.

Seriously can't fall asleep. Insanely horrid feeling.

Zzzzz.

Insomnia.

I can't sleep without you next to me.

Feeling as though something is missing. And it's eating me up from the inside out.

I Am... Yours

Had a great weekend. House to myself. 3 consecutive nights of partying.

And did I mention the best thing? Beyoncé's live DVD came! Happyness.

Thanks to everyone who made this weekend possible. Love ya'll.

Go Ahead.

Telling my body to not fall sick, but I find myself cuddling under the blanket. Feeling cold? Not too sure. Trying to think but this malaise is affecting me. BAH.

Telephone.

Hello, hello? Baby you called? I can't hear a thing.

I have got no service in the club, you see-see.

Wha-wha-whaat did you say? Oh you breaking up on me.

Sorry, I cannot hear you. I'm kinda busy.

Today was a day of high yield. Studied. Breast clinic. SGH ward-trolling with high success-rate. Awesomeness.

Paeds interview just around the corner. It beckons with a menacing smile.

Make It Good.

So. Much. Inertia.

Seriously. Everything seems so much more interesting. Sitting in front of the computer listening to music and staring into space.

Help me?

Scared shitless by the interview next Monday.